Mystic

There was a point in time when I would read my tarot cards daily. Numerous times a day actually. I can remember when I was in college and I would read Dana's cards, Dana would read my cards, we would read the cards of our neighbor K.C. I remember one night I read the cards of this guy that I had the hugest crash on, Drew I think was his name, he had gone to Central America as a frat guy and came back a poncho wearing "cool dude". I can remember distinctly he and I sitting up late in my apartment (the wavy brick house that Dana and I thought was so cool until winter set in, and it was cold as hell, and then there was summer when we were over run with fleas), reading his cards, trying to figure out how to get him naked. But alas he was still a straight frat guy at heart. I thought, I later heard a persistent rumor that he was infact gay, and I believe dating a drag queen in small town Ohio at the time.
I can't remember how the tarot thing came about, or who taught me how to read them. I think that it was one of the many women (girls really) in Athens, OH who liked to think of themselves as witches, but I'm not sure about that one.

I stopped reading them, a few years ago, I think because I don't think I ever really understood what my reading really meant. And if I did understand the reading, it was always a big resounding NO to whatever the query was. I would ask "Will I find love?" and cards number 1-9 would be confusing however the final out come card would be awful. I had some cards that no matter what I would always get. the nine and ten of swords would always come up for me not good cards to have in the 10th position when you are asking for your soulmate. They say that getting the devil card or the death card is not necessarily bad, not with these card.
I also tended to ask the same questions over and over, hoping to get an answer that I wanted.
Will I find love? 10 of swords is the answer. Will love find me? 9 of swords the answer. Will I be able to save some money in the near future? The Fool would be the answer. So I figured I'd stop. I mean it took about 15 years but I got the answer and stopped.
Until Today. I figured its a new year, a new decade for me, why not give them a try. The deck was here, I still had the books to give me a refresher on what the cards meant. and no matter what I will only do one reading.
My old friend the nine of swords was in the reading...but in the 5th position, which is things that MIGHT be in my future. and my last card, the card which is the outcome of your query was the 9 of cups, the wish card, the old tarot book says "can mean wish come true, especially in the tenth Celtic position" however, it was upside down... "Wish will not be fulfilled at this time"
Story of my life.